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Happy New Years

Hopefully your new years eve/new years day started out better then mine.

Late last night, as I was blissfully drunk on a mix of CapeCoders, Tequilia Sunrises, and Champane... I had the worst panic attack ever.

I couldnt stop it either, at least two hours long. Hell I fell asleep still un able to control my breathing.

It pisses me off to no end, that that shit happened...

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Anyways... 2009 is here and I planning a little something for 2010...

2010 I turn 30.
2010 I have my 5th wedding anniversary.
My son will almost be 3.

Orriginally my husband and I planned to go to Vegas on our 5th and get re-married.

The joke because we got married on 05/05/05 at 5pm...

So maybe we will go to Vegas... maybe Disneyland... maybe both.

Just an idea.

You'll shoot your eye out...

I'm starting t0 hate Christmas.

This may sound petty... but its how I feel.

Its just a bother.

Christmas used to rock. I think. Its been so long since I've had a GOOD Christmas memory...

I have a husband who (and I think this is the thing that most anoys me about him.) doesn't do commercialized events... so Sweetest Day, Valentines day, Christmas...nope. He doesn't really care. He will get me gift and give it to me the day it was bought. Still in the bag, receipt clinging to it from static.

Or as I put something in my cart - he will let me know "that can be your Christmas gift."

My family(My brother not included - he is the bright spot of this ordeal) doesn't seem to get it. I have been asked "What do you want for Christmas?" I will tell them, and get nothing what I asked for (Not even from the same store - so I cant exchange it) Its petty, I know. But it feels like no one is listening too you. Half the stuff I got in the last two years - I would have never used or bought for myself - hell I cant even tell you what I got for Christmas last year or the year before. (OH! Wait... the year before last - I got my camera. I bought it, with my moms money.)

Before... before life changed...

It was great. We would buy gifts, we would wrap stuff. We would go to bed, wake up early, pick out presents unwrap like mad for a half an hour. Then dissipate for a few hours, then someone would get dressed/hungry and we would head out for Columbus to go watch a movie, and eat Chinese food. And usually I would have to leave because I had to work that day.

But its just seemed that no one has really given a shit. My mom's lonely, and dealing with empty nest syndrome - and doesn't do anything about it - or understand that its okay to be at home, by your self. Is the time of year where the wagons circle and people are with their families. Unfortunately her wagons have A) jobs that keep them away from family or B) their own family.

There are days where she is detrimental to me growing as an adult to deal with my own family.

My brother seems to be the only one that sees that it bothers me. I don't let it show, but yeah. It bothers me immensely. Now, I know that he and I are the only ones that see each other and can break it down and go. "Here. Let me help."

I get his self esteem issues - and he gets my family issues. *sigh*

(PS : REALLY hate it... when you type Christmas like this: CHRISTmas. Yeah I get it. Your a Christian. Guess what - its not always about you.)

I can only hope... that with Mason... things will change. Christmas will come back. But right now... everything is up in the air.

Black Friday

So... I'm knitting, my ass off.

My swap partner's bag. I am really getting into it. I've never knitted in this style before, so I was a bit apprehensive. But its turning out really well. I'm really quiet pleased.

I'm totally not going out today. I want to stay as far away from the creepy shoppers as humanly possible. So I'm sitting here, in an old pair of jeans, my "Team Edward" shirt that I would normally just sleep in and my over sized Ravelry sweatshirt.

its a bum around the house day.

As soon as my bag is done I have to work on my present for my cousin. Their baby is due in December. The present will get there later... so an after present I guess. I really wanted to get it to them, before the baby is due... who knows... maybe it will get there just in time. Then I can show you all pictures, and talk about it in public... I'm really happy with how it looks...

EPIC!

HOW EPIC WAS FOSTERS HOME FOR IMAGINARY FRIENDS ON MACY'S!!!!



Seriously, I thought that man was dead... EPIC!!

Really bad day...

So my day just got really bad. Just as we were all preparing to leave work, we all got the sad news that our morning co-anchor had lost her battle with cancer. She had been ill and off air for a few months, but her last on-air appearance was at the beginning of October to kick of breast cancer awareness month.

Today we lost her. She finally has some piece. The whole station was in tears, men, women... it was just a mess. we had gone from joking about stinky flamingos and complaining about the new coffee maker, to complete and utter loss of our friend.

I keep visiting her face book page, and reading people i know's facebook "what are you doing right now's" Everyone is jsut in shock...

I was off so bad, that I got caught speeding, and now have a court date. I just was off not thinking in a car that wasnt mine, or had cruse control, so I didnt even know how fast i was going untill i saw the state trooper....

Its been a really bad day.

Glutton...

Yeah... I know. I have WAY too much on my plate.

Don't care.

I've joined the National Novel Writing Month... as a challenge in writing. I love doing it. I would sit for days scribbling out stories in High School. I actually had this really intense fanfiction that I had written and I stupidly showed it to someone who had NO IDEA about the subject of what I was writing about... and basically laughed at what I had done, because she didn't understand. I've NEVER shown my work to anyone. Not even my husband. He gets so annoyed at this fact.

But I told him of my ambition... So keep an eye out on my counter over there...

And understand why November will basically be completely blank...